Familiarity.

I dropped E Friday night for the first time in two months. It was given to me for free in celebration of my birthday. It was the most magical experience I've had in a very long time.

I wanted her to be there... But she couldn't be. And instead, I brought home someone else... Who listened to me talk for hours... But had nothing to say. She made me doubt her existence. And I became afraid I was talking to myself.

But she did something no one else has done in quite a long time. She listened. And it felt familiar and safe. But, it saddened me she had nothing to say. Felt like I couldn't connect with her... Nor could she with me. Or... Perhaps it made her fall even harder for me. Almost seemed like it.

Someone's going to get hurt. I'm getting tired of doing this.