Sobriety

I am a hypocrite. I'm begging you to stop. Please don't trap yourself the way I have trapped myself.

But you're not doing any worse than I am. You just don't have the will to stop. And how can I show you how close to the edge you are? How can I prove that this isn't what you need?

I need you to see how wonderful you are. I need you to see your potential. I need you to know you have too much to offer to be risking it like this. I need you to see that I love you too much. I'm scared to lose you.

And though I was forced to stop due to circumstance... Part of it was for you. Part of it was because I didn't want to see you cry for me anymore. Part of it was because I wanted to show you that I care. Part of it was because I didn't want to be a hypocrite anymore. I knew that if I wanted you to quit... I had to do the same.

Please. Don't become part of the trap. Don't lend yourself to this superficial high. Don't let yourself fall. You are digging yourself a grave you won't be able to climb out of.